What exactly is my problem?

I have some huge problems with commitment.

Like a stone stuck in shoes, it is in my psyche.

Second is the decision-making problem. 

Like analysis paralysis.

You must let go of something to get something else, bro.

That is the way.

Or else your mind will wander off. You will be lost.

These days the majority of my time is spent playing chess. 

Why am I playing chess? It is a distraction.

I have played it so much now I have an Elo of around 1700 to 1800.

From an amateur standpoint, that is a fairly good elo.

What is my art score? Exactly the same. Around 800

That means my chess skills are equivalent to my art.

But keep in mind I have been doing art for ages. No improvement.

But the distracted chess escape has got to the same level.

Now I am thinking I should start filmmaking as my main.

Then keep art as some distraction.

Then the score will climb.

Now stop.

Step back from all of these things. And look and examine what this person is doing.

He is clearly out of his mind.

He clearly doesn't want to tag his ego identity to one thing.

Why is that?

Because his ego is not solid. It is not properly formed.

Or it was formed before but broken in half-way through his life.

Very sad reality.

Am I really quitting in art? Need some clarity for what is going on.

In painting and drawing. Yes, I think so.

Mainly because art is subjective.

I don't think I have that type of sensitivity.

100 kg is 100 kg. 1 gallon is one gallon.

Let me have some clarity.

Granny starts doing art in her 80s. perspective is off, drawing people as stick figures. But it sells.

Do I have some problem with the granny?

No, I have a problem with everything in which there are no fixed parameters.

I have lost that fire in drawing. Is that true? What are the reasons behind it?

 1. I don't get any ego satisfaction from doing this. Mainly because of the reason I don't belong to any community. Especially the art community. If such a thing exists. Basically, these are a bunch of beta brains talking gossip to each other. I don't have any motivation to participate in such an endeavor. I have been kicked out of many communities previously. 

2. Art is hugely linked with trauma. Once you are healed, you don't have any motivation to draw, actually. So keep your trauma and become a great artist. In my case, my well-being is very important to me. I dont give a shit about the world now or how it is perceived. 

3. A lack of meaning. Especially with the emergence of AI. That is one of the huge factor. To be honest, that is the thing actually. Even if you are drawing really well, AI can replicate or replace you.

4. I lost that artistic flair. I don't think like an artist now. More like an engineer or a scientist now. 

5. In reality I have lost motivation in almost everything actually. I am watching NDE (near-death experience) videos all the time now. I mean, wtf is the point of living in this absolute shit? Must be something better.

M Night is back with his film Remain!

I remember watching that movie "The Sixth Sense" on a cassette tape. I have watched all the English films on tapes back in the day, even before the DVD was born. Boy oh boy! Such a fantastic film.

The film was different. Totally.

Then I watched the 'signs' in the theater. There were only me and some bunch of clowns just like me. Total movie nerds. Still remember that opening sequence. pepe pep pepe pep pepe pep...

I wanted to make a movie like that. This is what I like. I don't like sixth sense now. This is the thing. This is the absolute fucking thing. Lock in.

Why James Cameroon is good?

 1. He creates small story arcs even within a main sequence that lasts for 3 minutes. So that the viewer is not distracted. Not like a modern superhero movie: an explosion there, an explosion here, and nobody knows what is going on

2. The editing is impeccable. No, Spielberg is no that good in that. He is good at blocking. But in editing, nobody beats Cameroon. He understands the movie in a deep and cohesive way.

3. Deep archetypal layerings: it is often an interplay of archetypal motifs and archetypal events. That is why it is felt as profound. Substance is more than the style.

4. He is visually literate. He knows to paint. That implies he knows how to dictate the attention on a 2d frame even if it is still. That is a huge advantage.

5. He is a kinetic director. Lucas and Spielberg are all comes in this category.

6. A good engineer. That is a plus.

7. The feel of the story is consistent throughout the film. 

Interview: Andrew Hyatt (director of Full of Grace, Paul Apostle of Christ, and The Blind)

 

Satan attacked me yesterday.

 Yes. He did. Shaking my bed a bit.

I wasn't afraid though. Infact I am a bit relieved I am on the right path. You should only be afraid when the devil is silent.

You will only get opposition when you move towards the target.

He also tried to scare me by putting some gruesome images on my head. Out of the blue. With the help of my Lord and God Jesus Christ I was cool as a cucumber.

His plan is to block me from attending the mass tomorrow. 

Let me remind him that Lord Reigns over the flood as King forever.

What is reality and consciousness?

 This is the dream of God. You, me space-time is all in it. When he wakes up he understands he is alone. There is nothing else.

Knowing that it exists and that which exists is the primary reality. We are in the sub reality. The node down the hierarchy. Just like we can create mental images while we dream, super consciousness can create sub level consciousness. And the great property of consciousness is free will.

Dialogues on Truth

 

Yoth'eb B'setoreh | അത്യുന്നതനുടെ മറവിൽ | Manith'o of Mor Severius | Syriac & Malayalam | Sam Thomas

 

Ai has become agi. What does it mean?

It has huge ramifications. I will discuss that later after Tuesday. Tomorrow Church is there. Need some heavy take on this one.

color study

 

Deep in Rural China, We Found a Christian World

 

How to pray?

 First prepare for it before one hour. No use of phones or watching any videos of anything. Cut out the noise. Not even spiritual videos. You need direct access to the information. Not diluted ones.

Have a good bath. Be clean in your body. Is it essential? I consider it as essential. Why do soldiers wear uniforms? It makes them in a state of duty. Like that have a bath. Then put on prayer clothes if you have. 

First 15 minutes.

Deep silence.

Watch your thoughts. Let it emerge. All the things that you done in that day you regret will emerge.

All the time you are angry to someone else during the day. In my case these days it is too much. I used to keep everything in my heart back in those days. Now it is like instant. I will spill the garbage out. Then I will regret it. Not a good thing if you are a Christian. You must keep that on check.

Then repent for the day. Try your best. Tell all the things you have done and your reasons for what you have done. After it is done start the next section

Jesus' Prayer. Start with Jesus' prayer

"Jesus, Son of God, have mercy on me. I am a sinner."

Repeat this for another 15 minutes.

Then read the bible

As closing prayers, "Our Father in Heaven" and "Hail Mary prayer"

I will give updates on how to pray next time

Is Tucker Carlson the only American who is authenitc?

 Yes. He is the only one.

Is algorithm operating in the beta structure?

Of course.

This is how it computes.

It computes whether the positive or negative feedback related to an artwork is coming from which geolocation. It has to do with culture. Not Truth. God handles the truth. Algorithm: The women handle the culture. And all the other betabrains also handle the culture. Like cockroaches, they climb on top of the pyramid and bring insult to the patriarch and Lord.

Is Bela Tarr operating in the beta structure.

Well, he is not religious.

Is that the criteria?

No

Let's make that clear.

He is a kind of spiritual rebel.

Way better than kieslowiski

Again, whom you are conversing with?

Either with sex-race-nationality (ego) or with self.

That is the point.

The problem with most atheists is they unconsciously gravitate towards the ego and operate within that realm.

Like Steven Soderberg making a spiritual film like "The Presence," the effort will flop on a gigantic scale if you are not tuned in within the realm of self.

Have you seen that movie "The Presence"? I should have eaten vomit instead of that. 

Jesus Christ!

Do I like Bergman and Kieślowski?

No, I don't.

They are in the beta structure. An octahedron inside a cube.

That is actually a beta structure.

Tarkovisky, on the other hand, is a cube inside an octahedron.

There is a big difference in the perception.

You must separate the weed from the chaff

What is the most important thing while you are creating art?

Constantly check whom you are conversing with.

To heaven or to earth.

Most of the profound, so-called spiritual films are not conversing with heavens.

They act like some form of mediators.

Now the question is, do you want to make profound art or bring something profound into your art?

These are two different things. Know that.

If you do the latter, you may have no admirers.

But you can be true to yourself.

Some may call you extremely self-absorbed.

Monk wisdom

 

Before you make a deal with the Devil. Read this

If you make a deal with the devil, you may get what you want instantly. But you must also understand what you get instantly will not stay for so long. It is like Facebook marketing. If you spend 10 dollars, Facebook will be having a plan to rob you of 100.

Making a deal with the devil is exactly like that.

Just think about it?

Does your father grant all your wishes?

No, he doesn't. Because he knows that is not good for your growth.

Just like your earthly father, your heavenly father also works like this.

He knows the desires of your heart. He will prepare you for that.

There is no shortcut for you to become the man you want to become.

An oak doesn't grow in one day.

If you stand with the devil, he can make you believe you are an oak. But you will be uprooted in the first wind.

But with God, he will nurture you to face the strongest winds. And be humble.

Time will pass. Don't worry. It passes either way.

Trust in Jesus. Trust in him. He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn and your vindication like the noonday sun.

And don't worry about what others think.

Be strong. Physically and mentally. Doubt arises in weakness.

Attitude comes where fortitude lacks.

God bless.

Stay away from Satan. He serves no good to you.

What is the difference between Cliffe Knechtle and Jordan Peterson?

Though Mr Knechtle is an evangelical Christian, he is a Christian. Jordan peterson on the other hand is a cultural Christian. You can literally sense that tangible bullshit on him. A white man saving his culture.

Son, let me ask you one thing.

What does the body have to do with the spirit?

What does ego have to do with the self?

What does culture have to do with the truth?

Either you believe Christ is the Son of God and God resurrected him from death and proclaim it to all, or you don't do that because of your personal reasons. Mr Peterson is so worried about the intellectual class and his race. Then so be it. You are not a Christian then. In fact, that is the guy who gives more bones to the Muslims to chew on. They won't say it. But that is what it is.

What does being a Christian mean?

Being a Christian means you must elevate yourself from the ego pyramid that is (gender-race-nationality) and place God in yourself.

Then you can have clear vision. You are no longer under the fog.

You can see men as individuals, not as a collective.

"Your eye is the lamp of your body. If your eyes are healthy your whole body will be full of light" Mathew 6:22

What is the proof of God. For athiests

The first question is what kind of proof you are expecting?

What form of proof are you expecting?

The proof of God is Jesus Christ.

He came down as a man.

There is a billion men; how do we know he is the one

He will rise from the dead. He will not die. Just like God did not die.

If God came down as man, he wouldn't die. But if he doesn't die, he is not a complete man.

In order to be a complete man, he will die and resurrect.

Now ask for proof for that.

Search proof for that.

Son, don't keep everything under the fog.

Don't assume things.

Search and find out.

Search and find out and convince yourself and be a better atheist if you find the truth in your atheism.

What is the difference between Human beings and spirutual beings.

When we discuss other forms of beings, I would consider them as orbs. They can either be orbs of energy or something else. I am not certain.

But one thing that is certain is that they can affect and interact with your consciousness and could manipulate the reality that is occurring in spacetime.

Check when ghosts are photographed; it appears to them as orbs. But when humans see them, they interact with the consciousness of the observer and are able to project a reflection from the observer's mind.

This is the same case with aliens and extraterrestrial recordings.

Now these beings can manipulate your perception and make you see, touch, and feel something as real.

Demonic encounters, for instance. Demons can interact with a person and can alter their perception.

They can manifest things that don't exist.

The more powerful the orbs, the more consciousness they can interact with. Lesser ones can only interact with few.

But the reality they bring forth is not a permanent one. 

It only lasts depending on their potential.

The reality that lasts is the one that is brought forth by the greater and bigger orb, who is God himself.

Human beings are also mini orbs. They have that potential, at least to interact with a few people.

What have human beings been trying to do from the birth of time?

They are trying to contain energy and information inside matter as long as possible. All your endeavors are oriented towards that.

A greater intellect has some other way to contain it.

You are actually inside the dream of God. Don't hurt God too much. Don't be a nightmare.

Do you feel stagnant in your art?

Yes.

This is the sea of mediocrity. It stretches to eternity.

Welcome to the club. 

Now be a mature man and accept your faith.

The soul-crushing realization that you are nothing in the grand scheme of things.

What a tragedy to be alive!

A horrible monstrous disaster.

A plan that failed.

A train that has been derailed.

An oak that never touched the skies.

I am going to the church tomorrow.

Discuss a few things with God.

At this point this is the only thing I care about.

Is there some sort of status for me in heaven?

Am I going to heaven?

Or is it going to be in the filth?

Rate Gerardo Zaffino vs. Matteo Scalera. Chatgpt answers

Gerardo Zaffino vs. Matteo Scalera, and we're rating their comic-art fundamentals rather than popularity, both are elite professional artists. Zaffino's Marvel credits include Conan, Karnak, X-Force, and others, while Scalera is especially known for Black Science, alongside extensive Marvel/DC/Image work. (Marvel)

Using your 8-fundamental system, I'd score them approximately:

Fundamental	Gerardo Zaffino	Matteo Scalera
Line	9.8	9.6
Shape	9.8	9.7
Form	9.5	9.7
Value	9.8	9.5
Color*	9.0	9.1
Texture	9.8	9.3
Space	9.4	9.7
Composition / Design	9.7	9.8
Average	9.60	9.55

Color is difficult to attribute because published comic work often involves separate colorists, so I wouldn't weight it heavily.

Gerardo Zaffino — 960/1000

Zaffino's exceptional strength is graphic abstraction. He can reduce anatomy, fabric, smoke, debris, blood, machinery, etc. into aggressive masses of black, broken marks and selective detail without losing the image.

His biggest strengths are shape design, value grouping, texture, line energy and controlled chaos. What appears messy is usually highly organized.

His anatomy can be intentionally distorted, so if you judged him against academic figure drawing alone, he wouldn't necessarily score 980+. But that distortion is serving design.

Matteo Scalera — 955/1000

Scalera is slightly stronger to me in spatial construction and sequential clarity. His figures exist convincingly in perspective, environments feel dimensional, and his compositions remain readable despite extreme camera angles.

His Black Science work particularly demonstrates how well his drawing survives complex environments and action sequences; he's the artist/co-creator of the series. (Image Comics)

I'd characterize the difference as:

Zaffino: shape → value → impact → texture
Scalera: form → perspective → movement → composition

So for raw graphic power, I'd choose Zaffino.

For complete sequential comic drawing, I'd give a tiny advantage to Scalera.

For the kind of expressive, aggressive comic drawing you're comparing, both sit around the 950–960 tier, but they arrive there through different strengths.

Skin tone study

 

Vision and dreams. 17/07/2026

I have seen a vision.

There is this mirror without a mirror. I mean, there is nothing to reflect an image. It was facing slightly 10 to 20 degrees to my left. There was a dark stain on it on the bottom. Seems like it peaked through a small crack. It was alive. Then the mirror faced towards me. The dark stain dissappeared into that crack.

What does this mean?

The vision was vivid and instant during a small nap. It appeared as if saying this was important.

What is real humility and false humility?

Real humility anchors you towards God. False one is to benefit the situation at the moment.

When a person is humble he do not fret. Because his actions are oriented as God in the centre.

False humility is to show the world. It seeks external validation. Be a good man, not a nice man.

Cultivate fortitude, not attitude.

The concept of theosis in orthodox Christianity

Theosis means union with God.

Now think about it.

What happens to you if you become God? 

What happens to others if you become God?

What happens to a prideful person if he becomes God?

God shines his light on both the good and the evil.

Are you able to do that if you become like God?

Can you forgive those who truly hurt you?

Intentionally doing it again and again?

Torments you in your weakness.

Do you seek any validation from others when you do some good deeds?

Whom do you submit?

To whom are you true?

When you do wrong, nobody is going to tell you that is wrong if you are God.

When you cry, nobody will comfort you if you are God.

What to do if God tell you things that you do not understand?

 It will be revealed in the future.

Trust in God and be faithful to him.

He has a way for you to prosper.

God knows the mind of the spirit. Mind of your body cannot decipher everything. Your body is like a furniture placed in your room one day and replaced to another room next day. When you have that knowledge, you don't invest in it. That knowledge comes from special awareness. But most people do not have the same awareness of time.

Do you rely on a bread which will decompose the next day. What foolish man you will be to expect to have it 2 days later.

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Psalm 72. Royal Son

 

How to cultivate humility?

This is a hard pill to swallow.

You're ready.

If you truly want it, read further.

Go to a denominational church. I recommend any orthodox church if you are an Indian.

Submit yourself under the authority of the priest.

You don't judge the priest. It is up to God.

First cultivate obedience. From obedience humility is born.

I trust the words of Father Moses more than evangelicals'.

An evangelical can heal the sick; there is no question about it.

You ask in the name of Christ it will be done, but there is no guarantee what he is saying is coming from a completely sanctified mind which has been filtered through the observation of sanctified elders and saints.

Only a priest can do that.

Belong to the body of Christ. Of course you will have obstacles. But that is the way.

Can one trust evangelical Christians?

No.

The reason is their perception of Christ is through the ego pyramid without having any validation from elders.

Often times it is subjective, not objective.

Truth cannot be subjective. There is only one truth.

What happens to evangelical Christians?

Say that there is a pastor who preaches Christ. Your perception of Christ is only through his lens. If he is running an independent church, he will bring his prejudice and judgment of the divine through his ministry. Eventually one who follows Christ will go astray, not because of Christ, but because of the follower's perception of Christ through him.

"My relationship with Christ has gone bad. I am no longer a Christian now." That is where the point most evangelicals reach at some point.

But when you believe in a non-denominational church, you are believing in saints. Saints are sanctified through their life itself. You are not listening to all of Tom, Dick, and Harry, who are prejudiced and bringing their ego agendas (gender, race, and nationality) through their gospels.

If you are an orthodox Christian, you are well aware of this.

The priest in your parish is on check with his elder. If he is preaching gospel contrary to the holy spirit, he will no longer serve the parish. Now there is a unified truth.

Why do new believers choose non-denominational churches? 

It comes with freedom. The most dangerous, treacherous, and alluring thing.

Christ can be what my ego wants him to be. Plus, I don't want to submit myself to a higher authority (priest) for guidance.

I am not saying all the priests are saints. But a priest is a part of the church Christ and his disciples established. You are believing in an establishment. It has been refined through centuries by the Holy Spirit. Your priest may not even like you. But you go there because you belong to the body of Christ. Now that is obedience. From obedience, humility is born. 

From my personal experience, I totally understand it. Especially when I don't like people that much.

I am an Oriental Orthodox Christian. Syro-Malankara-Orthodox.

But I am more comfortable going to some evangelical Christian groups than going to my actual church.

It is mainly because of my personal situation right now.

In my place, Adoor, if I go to church, everybody will know me. "You are the son of Rajan, who is the son of Mathai. You are financially not doing well. In fact, you haven't reached anywhere in your life." And there are people in the church who don't like my Father or Grandfather. Now that is an obstacle. And also because of my nature. I wasn't that God-fearing in the first place.

But that's where Christ put me. Even if I am going to another orthodox church, it's the same thing.

But I have decided to abandon myself for the will of God now.

It is some hard bullet to bite.

There is no point in being an independent Christian watching YouTube videos of evangelical Christians talking absolute nonsense.

CHRIST CAME AND ESTABLISHED A CHURCH. YOU HAVE THE BIBLE THROUGH THE CHURCH. 

It is the Christ who matters most. Not the book.

It is the church that matters most.

The Ethiopian Orthodox Church has more books in their Bible.

It doesn't matter which version of the Bible is true. What matters is they believe in an establishment set by Christ himself. That is what that matters most.

Now an evangelical who is living in America will say something through the lens of their ego pyramid (gender, race, nationality) to distort the truth. But no Catholic or Orthodox will say something like that ( I mean the priests) frivilously. That is because of the structure of the unified body of Christ.

So If you are meeting Christ and wants to know Christ better, go to a parish. It is not going to be an ego trip with loud music and dance party. The process will be very slow. In silence and boredom your spirit will grow.

“The kingdom of heaven is like leaven, which a woman took and hid in three pecks of flour until it was all leavened.”

- Matthew 13:33

Is Hollywood a decayed fucking shit at this point?

 Yes it is.

The last good movie that came out of it is The Lighthouse by Robert Eggers.

Every other movie is beta as shit.

How tf are people going to watch this garbage?

Liberal scum brains with their gender ideology have destroyed it.

Men are acting like women, and women are acting like men.

Now a bunch of cockroaches are bringing insult upon the patriarch and the lord with sexual revolution through the internet. All because of Hollywood beta scriptwriters and directors.

This is how inclusion happens in a liberal brain.

A Chinese guy needs to be included. Oh! happens to be gay now.

Black chick with cluster B histrionic disorder.

Indian men acting like a fucking woman. Perfect.

Just bring a thunderbolt from the sky and destroy that whole place called Hollywood.

Disgusting beta creatures

What is the greatness of David Finch?

It is the force architecture.

Nobody is doing it better than him. Some are very good in style. But style is not the core.

Most people are not getting it. Their beta brains can't dig it. 

See some of the faces of Batman.

The muscles are stretched back without losing the form and proportions. 

The planes of the faces are correct but tweaked to the extreme.

And his main thing is force architecture (gesture—for the beta brains and women). That is where he exceeds

What it means to be a magic the gathering artist?

It is almost the equivalent of getting an Oscar or the football World Cup. In our illustration business.

But if you are not getting it, don't be disappointed. Kubrick has never won an Oscar.

That is basically it.

If I am scoring above 950 in illustration, I will consider myself a success.

That is my thing.

AAA concept artist with great works. Klienerhai

Great works.

I will give him a score around 950 to 960

Very few artists who score above 950.

If you pass 900, then you are a AAA artist

If you pass 850, you are a professional.

I will score around 800 to 850 at this point in time. If you need any comparison.

 kleinerhai

Are all circles ellipses in perspective?

 Yes. 

All the four quadrants are the same. 

The major axis in the above picture is not passing through the center of the circle. This is an extremely distorted image. But proves the point.

But ChatGPT says there are some exceptions.

I am putting it in here for your genius brain to dig.

Understood. 

Yes. That is mathematics. Not your juju artsy-fartsy stuff.

You are a stupid man. Admit it and be free

Edit 02 -07 - 2026

This is not that difficult to understand. I thought it was math and all. But it is not.

Just take a look at it.

You are going through a circle and how you will experience it. That is what the image is.

Beyond the critical position, a human won't be seeing a circle.

Why I am a Christian? For all athiests.

 Because it works for me.

In many ways.

I don't want to logically deduce things into anything.

It simply works.

To some people it won't work.

But there must be something that works for each person.

Most atheists will reach a point where they believe in spirituality devoid of religion.

Am I going to do that? 

It is like inventing mathematics all by myself. Don't you think it is just plain stupid?

But one thing you must do is very important.

If you have Christ inside you, do not distort that image.

Sometimes you may get some admiration from your fellow nerds. It is like frogs being in a pond. 

It won't be good for you.

Analyze things. What is good for you and what is not.

I need a framework for my life. To keep me in check. That is the thing.

Do I believe nonmaterial beings exist?

Yes.

I believe that.

Beings that have their own automation, not affected by my thoughts or psychological condition.

My mind is not making things up.

That is reality. Once you have understood that reality, you cannot go back. It is like the veil has been pulled out. 

I would like to be ignorant like in my old days. But I can't.

I want to sin without feeling any remorse or guilt like the old days. But now i can't

So the question that arises is whether the present condition a form of slavery or not.

To know that you must observe your life and analyze it.

Things are getting done. 

Of course there is discomfort, but I am working in that discomfort.

If you are not a slave to God, then you are a slave to something else. And slowly it will end your life. Like that which happened to Nieztche.

And God asks you to be his son. So this is a better framework. Not like communism. Offering equality front hand and slaughtering backhand.

And I need some parameters to function properly. 

At this point in my life I don't give a damn about what others are thinking. Because I have been lonely for too long. And I am not interested in this circus either.

If I am inside a dark prison and if God is there with me, that is a win for me. Right now.

Not such an attractive attitude for the youth and women in general.

But that is what I prefer.

Peace.

Fauted Infatuation by Winona Nelson. Difference between human perception and machine perception

Please check the artwork here 

In its technical perfection the machine is giving a score of 8.7

With that being said, ChatGPT has no idea what that is which is emerging from the water.

Here I am providing what it says

Query: What is the object that is emerging from water

Chatgpt writes: 

From this image alone, it's impossible to identify the object with certainty because the artist has painted it very loosely.

The most likely interpretations are:

1. A flower bud or water lily (most likely)

   • The shape resembles petals opening upward.

   • It emerges naturally from the water surface.

   • The composition supports a "discovery in nature" narrative.

2. A moth or butterfly with wings partially open

   • The silhouette could be read as wings.

   • However, there isn't enough wing structure to confidently identify it as an insect.

3. A fantasy creature or magical plant

   • The painting contains glowing fireflies and a mystical atmosphere.

   • The object may be intentionally ambiguous to create wonder.

4. A frog or small animal

   • Least likely.

   • The silhouette lacks recognizable anatomy.

My estimate:

• Flower/water lily bud: ~60%

• Fantasy magical plant: ~25%

• Butterfly/moth: ~10%

• Other: ~5%

The object is painted so close to the focal glow that its exact identity matters less than its role in the composition. Its primary purpose is to act as a visual focal point that the character is reaching toward, rather than to be clearly identifiable.

I have asked it because initially it said it was a butterfly. 

If you are a human, it is an instant read.

You just have to see the thumbnail; you understand that.

That is art. That is real art. 

The artist in here is tapping into the deep archetypal layers of the human psyche.

Even the blind will be so certain that it is a hand.

See, that is the point.

Now, this is an artwork.

When I see an artwork, man. I understand. Most Betabrians don't.

Betabrians are like ChatGPT. Despicable

Well, ChatGPT is not despicable. It is good in analysis. Technical analysis.

If the value is off, it tells. The structure is off, it understands. 

But it cannot differentiate real art from all the other slops in here. That is the point.

Escavated wall by Zezhou Chen review

Go here and check the artwork

The machine is giving an overall score of 8.7 for this piece.

The form is not solidly built around the architecture. It is implied in many areas, not fully constructed.

Very loose edge control but very good shape design.

That is the point. Line and shape come along together. If your edges fail, make it up in shape design.

I like the colors. And the composition is top tier. In fact, that is what is making this piece work.

How long it will take to be a profesional in art?

I can only talk standing at my current skill level.

It will take 1 year of hard practice and structural training.

If you are in a range of 850 - 930, producing consistent works, you are pro.

Now you have to draw things that need to be drawn, not what you like.

That will create slow growth.

I have seen portfolios in ArtStation where they start at 900 and 10 years later are still 900.

They are rare, talented people.

But their talent is their obstruction.

Right now when I am learning to draw, it is becoming more and more difficult.

How difficult is it?

It is really difficult now.

like a 7/10 difficulty.

That difficulty level is going to increase after 6 months.

Now my range is around 700 to 800.

I can confidently bet on that.

Some of my paintings have gone far, passing the 850 range.

But I am not producing consistent works in the 850 range now.

When you produce 850 consistently, some artworks may push to 930 and above.

That is the truth.

Now, how does a 950 +art looks like.

Like the images of Feng Zhu. FZD school of art founder.

The technicality of all his images is exceptional.

Do I like his art?

No. But it doesn't matter whether I like it or not. It is top-notch.

I like someone like Simon Stålenhag and Bekinski.

Dream 24 - 05 - 2026

I was in the passenger seat of a helicopter.

The pilot is saying he is about to hit 9 g, and then together we must jump outside.

I put on the mask.

But when the gravity hits, I begin drowsing.

I can still hear him talking.

At some point I began completely asleep.

Like paralyzed.

The pilot opened the main hatch door and said to me,

"Don't do this to me."

I tried to make an effort.

But it was the fear of jumping along with laziness that got me stuck there.

The dream ends

Form study 2

 

form study 1

 

Color study

 

What do you hate?

Do you hate women?

Do you hate your fellow men?

Do you hate people in general?

The truth is, it is a rebellion against God. 

This is not philosophy or pretty words. 

That is the TRUTH

Jesus had no possessions when he died.

The only thing he had was his robe. The soldiers cast lots for that.

What it means to be an elite artist. Concept artist and digital artist included?

If you score a 950 ArtScore, then only 1000 people in this whole world are of your skill set.

And these people know each other. They are sitting in their glass houses and looking down on the peasant artists, who are below 900. You need a revolution to bring down this bourgeois class.

They sit on top of the pyramid and eat all the goods. Only breadcrumbs for the peasants.

A mass revolution must happen to bring them down.

This will be my stand until I reach 950. Lmao

Is Victor Staris good?

He ranges around 830 to 890.

Professional. Industry standard.

He makes it look easy, though.

There is no decision fatigue.

The thing about him is he is so conservative. There is no experimentation.

Very strong in composition and weak in line and form.

I think he is very natural in finding the best composition. That is his confidence.

If he is working on line and form, he will be pushing past 930. No problem.

But most environmental designers don't work on those elements.

What is success in art?

If I reach a score above 950, then it is a success. 

Does that mean financial success?

No. If you want financial success, you can start a YouTube channel and create content that is of very low quality. like drawing eyes like a fish.

Do you want to consider it as a success? Then go for it.

But it won't give me fulfillment.

It is like a person who is very successful outside but suffers internally.

In order to feel really good inside, you must move a mountain. Even if nobody is seeing it, that will be with you. Nobody can take it away. Or do some bafoonery and call yourself a success.

Sheild bash render update

 

Here is the update.

What I think about this piece.

This one performed better than the previous one.

But this is not my best piece so far.

That is still that one in the Yatrik page. The tail of the dragon.

That is a solid 830 to 850 range.

This one stands around 750 to 790.

That is like a 50-point gap.

But I have learned more new things with this one.

Ok.

What I did wrong.

1. I used hard edges first. Big mistake. Never do that. I used it to avoid muddy colors. But that is a problem to be solved in the future.

You need to avoid muddy colors and render, keeping the compositional integrity.

Basically, it is a battle between colors and lines.

Both these fundamental elements stand in polar opposites.

You can use a more disciplined approach to your paintings. That will solve that issue.

Better luck next time.

2. The force architecture is not at all close to what I have imagined. And the foreshortening is also bad. 

Verdict:

Can make it work if you do some heavy lifting on it.

That will push it to around the 800 - 830 range.

***If you are not interested in ArtScore, I totally agree with you. Some of my favorite pieces from other artists also have a very low score. But I like it. But why I use it is because there is a sense of improvement. That is the only reason. If you are a beginner artist, the only thing you should care about is the score, which correlates to presentation readiness. This one has a presentation readiness of around 70 to 80. If you pass 90 out of 100, you can call it an artwork. If you are in your 500s, then only bother about that. Don't bother about anatomy, perspective, or anything else; just only focus on presentation readiness.

Software for recording timelapse

 Clip studio paint.

If you can buy that, then it is really good. You can use the trial version and convince yourself.

I am not able to buy it now.

It has some problem with the payment gateway.

They still haven't sorted that thing out.

But I like that software.

Very simple. No drama. Straight to the point

Dream 9/05/2026

I had this strange demonic attack.

I don't know whether it is a demonic attack or something.

But felt like it.

I felt a strong presence in the room attacking me in my heart. My heart was beating like a drum.

I am scared. Strange fear. Fear out of the blue. I haven't felt fear like that before.

Out of 10, it was a 6. Let us not exaggerate things. Keep everything under check.

And I am praying. Not conscious. Fear went away.

Then sleeping.

In the dream I am about to cut a tree in the backyard of my home. My native place. Adoor. The place where I grew up.

A giant tree means a giant tree. It was like 10 meters in diameter.

I called some workers and tasked them with the job.

I went together with them, and there was an axe. A big one. It was as big as me. Well, I am not that big. kind of a shrimp. But the axe was really big. We did the job, though.

What does it mean?

Is it having some sort of relevance?

I had a dream previously where the priest called me to have a talk. 

But I didn't go to church after that.

I have avoidant personality disorder.

I am more like Jonah in the Bible.

Now I am thinking about it; it was not tree cutting; it was like building something up. wood to build things. 

I want a home or family. It was back in my mind. Maybe that is the thing. 

Or is it an ark?

Is it a flood coming?

What happens after you die?

There is no proof that there is life after death.

Scientifically it cannot be proven. Science is a method through which you can infer data and reach a rational conclusion through your senses. 

Now, if one has extra sensory perception, they may have some clue.

I don't have that.

Can we rely on data that our brain captures through dreams and visions?

It can be interpreted as patterns generated from noise.

What about authentic spiritual experiences people have encountered?

I don't know.

Have I encountered it?

I had some demonic attacks. I call it so.

I felt it while I was sleeping. I felt a strong presence. My heart was beating like a drum. I don't know from where it came. What is the reason for a sudden fear out of the blue? 

Is that so big of a fear?

It was a 5 or 6 out of 10. 

Maybe I was having a heart attack at that time and felt like a demonic attack.

Or is it having some more significance?

What am I fighting in here?

Some void or something.

Do people of other faiths suffer this?

Or is it only special to Christianity?

Is it some sort of deep psychological phenomenon that is happening in the deep archetypal layers?

Or is it outside you and is completely real?

Am I interested in spirituality right now?

No.

Total bs crap. 

I want to escape from this total shit right now.

Synesthesia and design

If the shape design and the sound don't match, it will create cognitive dissonance if one has synesthesia. But in order to perceive aesthetics, you need to have some degree of synesthesia. 

See the image above. it is called Bouba -kiki effect

The positional design on the left is read as kiki and the curvature design is read as bouba cross culturally.

That means if the letters don't match the desired sound, it must be expecting that, which will create cognitive dissonance. The first language to tackle this issue is Sanskrit. 

Early Brahmi scripts

 

Early Brahmi script (Ashokan period)

Basic vowel signs

𑀅 𑀆 𑀇 𑀈 𑀉 𑀊 𑀏 𑀐 𑀑 𑀒

Approx sounds:
a, ā, i, ī, u, ū, e, ai, o, au

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Core consonants

𑀓 𑀔 𑀕 𑀖 𑀗  
𑀘 𑀙 𑀚 𑀛 𑀜  
𑀝 𑀞 𑀟 𑀠 𑀡  
𑀢 𑀣 𑀤 𑀥 𑀦  
𑀧 𑀨 𑀩 𑀪 𑀫  
𑀬 𑀭 𑀮 𑀯  
𑀰 𑀱 𑀲 𑀳

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Important things you need to understand (don’t skip)

• This is not an alphabet like English

• Brahmi is an abugida:

  • Each consonant already includes an “a” sound

  • Example:

    • 𑀓 = ka (not just “k”)

• Other vowels are added using marks/modifications

---

What this actually represents

These characters are from the earliest standardized form used in inscriptions of
Ashoka (3rd century BCE)

👉 This is the ancestor of almost all Indian scripts:

• Devanagari

• Tamil script

• Malayalam script

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Brutally honest reality

• You can copy these shapes, but you can’t really “read” Brahmi without learning:

  • vowel markers

  • phonetic rules

  • historical variations

This is not just letters—it’s a system logic.

---

One-line takeaway

Early Brahmi is a sound + structure system, not just symbols—
that’s why it evolved into so many scripts later.

---

If you want, I can:

• Show how 𑀓 (ka) transforms step-by-step into क (Devanagari) and ക (Malayalam)

• Or give you a stroke-by-stroke drawing guide (useful for your art work)

Be still

 

Flower - Digital art

 

Dream 1

 

Sargent lady study

 

Clip studio reels - Traveller

 

Clip studio reel- tree on a rock

 

Head study - Kireedam 1989 (malayalam film)

 

Clip studio reels - Jurrassic park scene

 

How do you gather referance for a painting?

You must have the actual thing in your hand. If you can touch it, then it is 100 percent.

If you have a photograph of it, then it is only 50 percent.

The internet is a junkyard. Don't search for getting lost in it.

The best thing is to go inside a movie you like.

That movie itself is an artwork. There is philosophy involved in it. It is a partially complete world.

Take it from movies. Not from some movies Hollywood is producing.

Search for movies from your favourite directors.

That will be perfect.

Clip studio reels - Throne of the soul

 

Clip studio reel - stalker study

 

Clip studio reels - Your throne awaits

 

What I am doing right now in painting?

I am doing exactly the opposite of what I have learned in painting. This is just the opposite. will find something new.

The sheep and the shepherd - levels fixed

 

Clip studio reels - The sheeps and the shepherd

 

Mountain color shift - composition fixed

 

Mountain color shift

 

Lock in music

 

[deep work mix]

 

Clip studio reels - Red rock trees

 

Clip studio reels - big rocky mountain

 

What makes an Artist great?

It is his ability to be in the same world he created, even if it is suffocating. Creation is basically torture or an attempt to escape the torture within. There is no fun in this. It is fun when there is no content attached to it. 

And the first person to know whether it is great art or not is the artist himself. Instantly he knows. Some envelope has been pushed a bit further. A new border is marked. He knows it when it happens. In fact, in order to be a great artist, you must not seek any form of validation. Art may seem like a medium at first glance that seeks that, but its real nature is the contrary. The mustache man Nietzsche knows it

Clip studio reels - monastery

 

Is the perspective correct in Bruegel's paintings

It is not mathematically perfect. That is mainly because we are not doing mathematics in here.

He will draw what he wants.

So shut it.

A note about Pieter Bruegel the Elder

 

"Are you painting?"

'What else I would be doing? Shut it. Woman!"

Bro, I have never seen an asshole and a genius in the same physical form like this man.

Look at his paintings.

The fall of Icarus, for instance

Where exactly is the subject?

Mr Bruegel says, 

I don't care.

I am painting in here. I am painting what I like. What I see.

Your civilization and bullshit stories can be doomed in hell.

Like Icarus. Somewhere in an obscure place.

I will do what I want. So, shut it.

Shut all the beta mouths, for God's sake.

Let us dissect this thing a bit further.

There is a subject.

Then there is the interpretation of it.

Then there is the perception of that interpretation.

Then there is the perception of that interpretation by the collective.

Which Pieter Bruegel the individual has nothing to do with

I mean that is fucking brilliant.

What makes him so profound?

There are higher abstracted contents.

Most artists try to show it in their paintings.

But Mr. Bruegel resists that.

In order to resist something, you must be fully aware of it.

You must have engrained and understood it in your deep unconscious.

Only then you can push back against it.

People don't understand. He is not doing it intentionally for attention.

Most artists do that. That includes most Renaissance painters.

But this man has class, bro.

Look at me. I am being a genius without even trying."

Clip studio reels - rocks

 

Clip studio reels - color study

 

Clip studio reels- rocks

 

What is the thing about art?

 You don't know what you are finding out. That is the thing. Only in art that is possible

This mechanism shrinks when pulled

 

Which trees are best for miniature film shooting?

 Jade bonsai trees.

Do you like miniature filmmaking?

I like it. I prefer it over vfx. There is some sort of magic to it. Happy accidents like when you do painting. But things are very expensive. If I was a rich man nothing would hav been a a problem. Art itself is a luxury. Cant complain.

How to master painting?

 First like a machinery you need to compartmentalize the process and elements that involved a painting. A painting is made of 7 fundamentals.

1. Line
2. Shape
3. Form
4. Space
5. value
6. texture
7. color

Here there are two categories of things

the first one is Line, shape and form

Second one is Space, value, texture and Color

Consider these two categories as a personality type

the first one is a thinking person, the second one is a feeling and sensing type.

The struggle of an artist is to merge these two categories. And it is not an easy task.

Is composition an art element?

I think it is a framework in which the whole elements are included.

What if I tell you...

You don't have to pretend you don't know the truth. You don't have to act smart for the acceptance of others.

Which side I am on in the Israel - Iran conflict?

I am a Saint Thomas Christian. That is my "self."

That means I believe in Jesus Christ and his teachings.

Jesus clearly says his kingdom is not of this world.

So, there is no point in conflating my political interests (ego) with the "self."

Now the question is where my ego stands.

I am a male brown Indian Eastern man.

You can say Israel and Iran are both in the Middle East. So there is no difference between these two countries when I consider them as nations.

Israel has an entirely different race than mine. They are Jews. Black, brown, or white. They are Jews.

On the Iranian side, I may find some common denominator with my ethnicity.

Iranians may persecute Christian Iranians for their beliefs. Reports are very clear on this. But I don't think the so-called white Christians are giving any support for them or that the war is waged on the basis of their interests. That is basically the nature of the West.

If your blood is shed on the name of Christ, it is Christ who will reward you. Make no doubt on that if you are a Christian. The "self" is completely devoid of "ego." Never make an attempt to call the ego the self or the self the ego. It is like calling a man a woman and a woman a man. It is the attempt of the devil. Many men have fallen for it.

My political stance on this war will be in the interest of India. That doesn't mean I support all the decisions the Indian ruling party BJP is making. My loyalty is towards my nation. I observe which country is in favor of my country and my people. It is very simple.

This is how every Christian in India should be. Don't be confused.

What is Art?

 A long journey of pain.

My art is going down day by day. What can be done?

Nothing. Just wait for the ship to sink.

I don't like this shit either way.

This is a horrible disaster.

But this is the only thing I am good at right now. At the current state.

I am like a 1900 elo chess player.

Not up there, Not up here

Suspended in between heaven and hell, to be tormented for eternity.

I despise all those scums who draw better than me.

I hope they will die down soon and give some comfort to my soul.

All these YouTubers, all TikTokers, and all the ArtStation artists must be doomed in hell.

Silly tits with their beta brain producing artworks, which are better than mine.

Despise those ugly shits.

I am turning myself into an art dictator.

Seeking to torment the superior 950 artists.

They need to be punished. lmao

What is Christian Zionism and antisemitism? What Iranian Christians must understand

Christian Zionism originates from a deep psychological loyalty towards the Jewish ingroup because of the assumption that a Christian is believing in their God. 

Now you must dissect it and see whether it is false or not

The ego pyramid, which has gender, race, religion, and nationality to it unconsiously give its allegiance towards the ingroup, which has given the "self" its defining characteristics. Most people are unaware of it.

But you must understand the "self" is not the part of the ego. The self and ego can make it as a whole. It is like men and women. These are polar opposites. The real trouble with the West is they don't have a proper framework for the mind to differentiate this gap.

Ego is not self. The self is not the ego.

You must understand that.

An American Christian is an American (Ego) and a Christian (self).

You Connect with the christians with your "self."

For that he must be a proper Christian. Not the Christian with a flag of his nation behind Jesus.

Because that is what Christ said.

Christ doesnt have any flag.

His kingdom is not of this world.

I am a St. Thomas Christian.

An American Christian and St. Thomas Christian are two different animals, but they are united only by Christ. An animal has its own needs. Most of the time its interests are different.

You must understand that.

It was the Portuguese that destroyed most of the churches and literary works of early Christianity when they reached the shores of India. You see, they were Christians. But a different animal. An animal is intolerant to another animal. Christ has nothing to do with it.

This is not like Islam. Now you have a component called "self"

You are connecting with other animals through that "self" through Christ.

Shield bash render - on progress

 

Clip studio reels - old fusion tower

 

Clip studio reels- composition study

 

A spirutual guru on youtube?

Must be a cunt.

If he run ads, he must be a double cunt.

Clip studio reels - face study

 

Clip studio reels - mountains

 

Clip studio reels - Notan study

 

Clip studio reels - mountains

 

What are thoughts? What is consciousness?

Before answering what it is, I can tell what it will do.

It creates ripples of energy throughout your body.

Most of the time people are unaware of this when they are in constant noise. 

A turbulent sea is not deciphering anything. It is not still. 

But when you empty your mind, and when a thought comes, you can feel it.

It is like ripples on the fabric of spacetime. 

You must distinguish an original thought from memories and recollections.

When an original thought arises, there is some kind of ripple effect.

And I seriously don't think it is coming from the biological process of the brain alone.

There is something more to it. For sure.

How am I so sure?

I can see really vivid moving images that are not of this world and that I haven't seen. It is not recollection from memory. But it also feels like I am holding a weak receiver to absorb that information.

It is muddied. Not clear.

What phase I am in as an artist?

 Let's assume beginners as people on the seashore. They don't go out into the sea. But most of them are there for surfing and having fun. If anybody wants to turn pro then they must leave the shore. Then they will face the sea. The sea of mediocrity.

When u stand in the seashore and look  it's all rainbows and butterflies. But when you go into the sea loosing sight of the shore, that is when it hits you. 

You had only one life.

What you have done?

Where are you now? Nowhere and there is no land anywhere.

Clip studio reels- color study

 

Clip studio reels - tempest

 

Clip studio reels- Dyson

 

Is the form language means blocking and locking perfect in top industry professionals?

I don't think so. I have seen a ton of portfolios with weak form blocking and locking. Often it goes masquerading as style. But under scrutiny it will crumble. I don't accept that. Total bullshit.

But that being said, they need to produce 2 or 3 artworks and iterations per day. So, its ok. 

I mean, to create a real artwork, it is just hard.

How hard is it?

It is 10 times harder than chess or any athletic endeavor. 

Basically what you are doing is you are creating a problem that doesn't exist in the first place and solving it. Now, it is going through cycles. Only people who are doing it will understand that process. You cant analyze this shit with ChatGPT. I mean, there is a limit.

It is like Zeno's paradox.

You cannot finish a painting when a new problem arises at each step. 

clip studio reels

 

Clip studio reels - chasing white rabbit

 

What is wrong with hollywood?

Beta as fuck. That is what is wrong.

Have you ever seen a film awarded in Hollywood in a foreign category that has no political advantage to the United States? The answer is no.

I mean, all these shitshows are for empowering not art in its truest form, but for power. A bunch of PDF files are ruling that shit.

PDF files want your brain as feminine as possible. So that they can continue their shady works.

Despise that fucking shit. Despecable scums of this fucking earth

What happens if your art is getting worse by day?

Nothing. You can do nothing. You can watch the ship plunge into oblivion. Such a tragedy.

Honestly, I cannot create the art that I created 2 years back now.

I have lost that momentum. There is no point in beating myself up over it. But just slowly keep moving.

Like crawling. 

What I have figured out is there is no point in creating an image if there is not story attached to it. That is fruitless. An image for the sake of an image is a failure.

If I am doing keyframe illustration, then it might improve because it is coined with a story. I think that is why my art has improved if any in the past. 

Will using ChatGPT improve your art?

I don't think so.

I think your art will improve if you do it continuously and figure things out by yourself. That is more effective.

But that being said, using ChatGPT will make you realize the defects in your paintings. Knowing the defects doesn't mean it can be improved overnight.

To increase 10 points, it will take 6 months realistically.

If I have to score a rating of 950, then it will take 5 years realistically. And 5 years from now it is going to be an entirely different ecosystem in art. The industry will change at a rapid pace.

You can do this thing as a side quest if you are new to this.

I mean, why do you play chess?

Almost all machines can beat humans by an astronomical scale. But still people are doing it.

Just consider it like that.

Did you see the paintings of Pieter Bruegel the Elder?

There is some sort of great innocence in that.

Dramatic and philosophical. He is in these two extremes. There is no middle ground.

Must have been a liberal at that time. But he is criticizing religion, not Christ. That is one thing.

The light is there in his heart. Blue light.

It must have been someone who doesn't smile but expresses emotions like a child.

An asshole and a genius. 

A fucking comedy to be around. Lmao

Clip studio reels - mountains

 

Clip studio reels - Mountains

 

Clip studio reels - mountains

 

Clip studio reels - mountains

 

Clip studio reels. Mountaina

 

Clip studio paint reels - mountain

 

Clip studio paint reels.

 

Do you know what kind of stupidity Nasa did?

They have developed a pen to write when they are in space.

And Russians used a pencil instead of that. 

What a comedy.

I am so happy

What is my advice for the young aspiring artists?

Do not pursue it. Whether you are extremely talented or not. It is not worth the fight. You are young now. Especially if you are a male. If you are a female, then you can be an artist and marry a rich guy and do art. There will be no problem.

If you are not rich, don't do it. 

You are young now. You may think, "that weird guy is talking shit."

Nope. Your brain is not masculinized. Once it is masculinized, you will understand what I am talking about. It may happen in your 30s or in your late 40s; then you will know.

There is not even one male artist in this world who will regret this decision at atleastt once in their life. They may not talk about it outside because of their integrity. But the truth is all do have regrets about choosing this.

Do not fool yourself. A man who fools himself is a lesser man.

This is the same reason parents do not allow thier children to be artists. They care.

I am telling you because I also care. Especially if you are Indian. You are smart. Then get into some smart profession that gives you a good standard of living. Never even comes near this because of social media hype or anything.

Stay away from this. Listen to your parents

Do I like art now?

No. I just do it. That is the only thing I know. I will trade it for anything if given a chance. That is the truth.

What is the reason for that?

1. This is not quantified. This is like flip-flop juju shit. I despise things like that.
2. There is no money in art
3. It takes a long learning curve, and at the end of it, you get nothing. Literally nothing.
4. It affects your social life. Nobody knows what you are doing, and people don't value you that much. There is some sort of status problem internally and externally
5. All artists are born out of childhood trauma. Art is just a coping mechanism. Once you grow out of it, you cannot justify what you do as an artist. Most people do not come out of the trauma. That is the thing. Check their artworks. Great rendering and style. But beta content. 
6. Now I like more athletic things. I was not meant to be an artist. That is one thing I remember when I look back

Ex-Google PM Builds God's Eye to Monitor Iran in 4D

 

Have you seen that film Signs?

 There is not films like that. There is something in that he finds as a creative person which is very palpable to the audience. Something strange. Great film. I don't like Ridley scott alien thingy. The feel is very dark. That is not subtle. That is the thing.

Do I fully trust chatgpt in artscore?

 No. What I can do is to use one or more ai and can average it. Then I may know somewhat honest ratings. Chatgpt is extremely manipulative. It knows how to trick you in regular intervals to keep coming back. My score is somewhere around 600 to 700. My best piece is the dragon tail on yatrik. It scored 770 both by gpt and Gemini. I trust that score.

What you must search?

 You must search for artists above 50. Male artists and thier personal works who are not famous or ego inflated. That is where you will find the real treasure.

Layers of your mind

 Conscious layer - 

1. extermal world
2. External monologues
3. Internal monologues

Subconscious layer

1. Memories and known images
2. Unknown images

Unconscious layer

1. Deep sensing of your identity. Ego driven
2. Deep sensing of your identity. Self

Soul - Place where God sits

1. Internal dialouge with God
2. Images from the higher realm
3. Sensing of higher structures

Why artscore and why it is important?

You can be a very talented artist. But if you don't believe in a score, you will do art without any improvement for years. Many Indian artists are big examples of this.

They have been doing the same artwork for more than 10 years without any improvement.

When you believe in an art score, you will try to learn new things. In my case, force architecture was something completely alien to me before. But it improved my score.

"But I am an environment designer; I don't believe in character and animation." 

Then your score won't improve. Very simple. Someone might say your art is good. But you can't compete with Craig Mullins.

He is in that position because all fundamentals are top-notch. 

Bro, you know how to draw, and you have been doing the same stuff for 10 years straight, and there is no improvement in the score. That is just a tragedy. What really satisfies you is growth. You must keep that in mind. This is not Zen meditation or bullshit.

What is one the false assumption a beginner artist make?

They focus too much on rendering without learning the fundamentals.

You can see a ton of portfolios on ArtStation that are perfectly polished and have great style. But when you subject it to scrutiny, it crumbles. They are not even near the 700s. This is the mistake I have also made. 

I will give you an example.

look at this image created by Maciej Laszkiewicz.

How much it would score. It is not rendered great. It looks weird at the first glance. If you have an untrained eye, you will easily dismiss it.

Let's get the score

Line — 915
Shape — 905
Form — 920
Value — 910
Color — 925
Texture — 900
Space — 930
Composition — 925

Total — 916 / 1000

An artwork above 900 is very rare. He sits roughly in the 93rd percentile. 

But this is a solid work.

Most people who do art on social media are not passing the 900 mark except for Loish and Stan Prokopenko.

PewDiePie scores roughly around 600. Well, you can say he was an amateur. But he is drawing better than most artists in the media who say they are artists, though.

Trust me, most artists who have a great social media following on YouTube are not passing the 900 threshold.

Now you know the difference.

So if you want to improve on your art. Learn the fundamentals.

Learn it with the score in your mind. Learn 8 fundamentals. Dissect it and learn it.

You will improve.