Why I am a Christian? For all athiests.

 Because it works for me.

In many ways.

I don't want to logically deduce things into anything.

It simply works.

To some people it won't work.

But there must be something that works for each person.

Most atheists will reach a point where they believe in spirituality devoid of religion.

Am I going to do that? 

It is like inventing mathematics all by myself. Don't you think it is just plain stupid?

But one thing you must do is very important.

If you have Christ inside you, do not distort that image.

Sometimes you may get some admiration from your fellow nerds. It is like frogs being in a pond. 

It won't be good for you.

Analyze things. What is good for you and what is not.

I need a framework for my life. To keep me in check. That is the thing.

Do I believe nonmaterial beings exist?

Yes.

I believe that.

Beings that have their own automation, not affected by my thoughts or psychological condition.

My mind is not making things up.

That is reality. Once you have understood that reality, you cannot go back. It is like the veil has been pulled out. 

I would like to be ignorant like in my old days. But I can't.

I want to sin without feeling any remorse or guilt like the old days. But now i can't

So the question that arises is whether the present condition a form of slavery or not.

To know that you must observe your life and analyze it.

Things are getting done. 

Of course there is discomfort, but I am working in that discomfort.

If you are not a slave to God, then you are a slave to something else. And slowly it will end your life. Like that which happened to Nieztche.

And God asks you to be his son. So this is a better framework. Not like communism. Offering equality front hand and slaughtering backhand.

And I need some parameters to function properly. 

At this point in my life I don't give a damn about what others are thinking. Because I have been lonely for too long. And I am not interested in this circus either.

If I am inside a dark prison and if God is there with me, that is a win for me. Right now.

Not such an attractive attitude for the youth and women in general.

But that is what I prefer.

Peace.